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Name: Nii-nii
Birthday: 11/27/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: Gardening, cooking, sewing, being a housewife
Expertise: Devil Hunter
Occupation: Assassin
Industry: Medical
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Member Since:
7/7/2004
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Damn, man! I have to go all the way to Lewisville to get Digital Devil Saga 1 and Garland for Digital Devil Saga 2.
Well... time for another adventure.
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I think my dad's at it again. I saw him pull up in the drive way, but he claims he was right outside the entire time.
Thing is, I'm not sure if I want to expose him right now because my birthday and Christmas is coming up. I want to get really nice shit.
Yea I know, I'm an asshole. But I'm so... fuckin... tired of this bullshit. Since it's the second time around, not even Joyce will be able to convince me not to brutally maul him.
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Lindsey made me a bead ring and proposed to me this morning. Dang, that's the second time.
I'd go to jail if I accepted. Kinda wish she wasn't 11. She's a really sweet girl.
Cutting Edge haunted house tomorrow. I fucking hate haunted houses so much. I hate being in situations where I can't predict the outcome.
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The PS2 is 9 years old today! Happy birthday!
To commemorate the birth of the greatest console in history, I shall be playing it all night.
Also, I have to call and thank everyone who helped me during the soap opera bullshit. I would have done something regrettable if they weren't there to help me cool down and think straight.
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I definitely learned a lot during the last few days of Hell.
First off, I learned that my sister really doesn't give a rat's ass about what it means to be in a family. From day 1, she would always run away from every problem she encountered. The afternoon all of the soap opera bullshit started, my sister came home to eat as usual before she left 5 minutes later to do whatever fat, obese druggies do. I told her about what was happening and told her to put her number into my phone. I also told her to keep herself free the next afternoon because I had class that I needed to attend while my mom and dad would be home discussing their plan of action after I had picked my mom up from Green Oaks. Sure enough, my sister's phone was off and 3 days later, she never even bothered to come home. Typical. A really long time ago, she would tell people that family was the most important aspect in her life and if anyone were to mess it up, they would have to answer to her. Years later I realized that she says that in public so that she'd look upstanding and responsible in front of people who don't really know her all that well. She really doesn't give a shit and I have made a note of that. I don't consider her my sister anymore after the shit she pulled.
Secondly, my father. Even if he was a pretty damn physically abusive ape from during my childhood, I still looked up to the guy. Him and my mom were high school sweet hearts and I thought it was pretty damn admirable of him to stay with one woman his entire life. I really liked the rags-to-riches story that he had gone through (previous entry); his dad divorcing grandma, the family moving to the states, etc.. I really looked up to the guy, but now I have him on the same shitlist as my sister. Between me and this here online journal, I cried my eyes out when I confronted him about this. I was sitting on my stairs and he was on the recliner with his face in his hands and I told him that I had faith in him. I wanted to trust that this was all a misunderstanding and I wanted him to tell me that, but unfortunately it wasn't and I cried pretty damn hard. How the fuck could he do that? He was my role model and he fucked up. Who am I supposed to look up to now? Am I the only normal person in this family who even gives a shit about my family's well-being? I have a homo cousin who tells my cousin-in-laws that he sucks a lot of dick (there was this one time one of my said cousin-in-laws was telling me that he had told him that a guy had slept over and the entire night they were giving each other blow jobs or some shit and the other guy had a ton of foul smelling fungus on his dick, but he sucked on it anyway), my sister and all my female cousins are sluts and druggies (one of them works/worked at a club as a pole dancer). My aunts married for money, my uncle sold out his grandmother to marry a psycho-bitch. My dad had an affair with someone 2 years younger than my sister... What the hell am I supposed to tell my future wife? That my family's prim and proper? I wouldn't be able to lie to her, even if it was for her sake. THESE PEOPLE ARE ALL FROM MY DAD'S SIDE OF THE FAMILY.
Thirdly, I learned how much I'm influenced by peoples' actions. I had swore to myself that I would never be like my sister. Ever. I didn't want to be an obese, jackass who ran away from every single problem or ordeal in front of her, so I picked up boxing to prevent my health from faltering and to toughen up my resolve, fortitude and my sense of responsibility and diligence. I took up pre-med because I didn't want to be remotely close to her disgusting level of intellect, and made it code to always be loyal to my friends and family. The shit my dad pulled strengthened by sense of duty and responsibility by a lot. I had the chance to run away and avoid this problem and let my parents duke this out, but I stayed and helped them. I knew that running away was something my sister would have done, so I did the exact opposite and prevented their divorce. My aunts and uncles rewarded me because I handled it so well, but I'm pretty sure my grades are going to suffer because I have mid-terms all this week and I barely had any sleep for the last few days relaying messages from my parents to my aunts and uncles. Now that my dad's on the same shitlist as my sister, it's sad to say that I will be treating him the same way as I treat my sister; no respect from me whatsoever.
I think I have matured a lot this week, don't you think? At the end of the week, I'm going to reward myself with the 200 dollar Tekken 6 fight controller joystick and collector's edition game. Well, maybe I matured just a little. But hey, mission accomplished. I prevented their divorce. I'm not going to Virginia. Can families go back to the way things were after something like this? Is that even possible? My mom told me that she doesn't know how long this will last, but I will do everything in my power to prevent my dad from fucking up again.
Now that this is all over, I think I'm going to tell Diana, Craig and Vanessa everything that happened over the past few days. I've been at home instead of my apartment and I wouldn't answer any calls that wasn't either my parents of my aunts/uncles (except for Joyce and my lab partners). Joyce really calms me down. When I was on the brink of murdering my own father, I called her and just hearing her voice soothes me. That was a great move, Paul.
My father will have to answer to every single member of the family before my birthday (Thanksgiving). I have no clue how it's going to work for him because he dug himself into a pretty fucking huge shit-hole. My mom went over to my aunts house and EVERYONE was there. Even my uncle, who looks as though he had never been angry in his entire life, was pissed the fuck off. Everyone was telling my mom to leave him. My grandma was crying ans suffering. How the hell is he going to recover from this? My dad said he was going to quit his job at the hospital to get away from her. I'm pretty sure that's going to put us in a financial hold for a while. He had a great position, too. And in only a few days, he fucked it up. Everyone hates him now. I hate everyone in my family except for my mom. That's not true. I hate everyone on my dad's side of the family except my grandma. Now THAT'S true.
Thanks GOD Windows 7 is out. Fuck Vista to Hell and back over 9000 times. Such a shitty OS. It's the ME of its time.
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